Love like there is no tomorrow

The world is still in a state of uncertainty, panic and fear. And I am still trying to deal with the emotions from the loss of my nephew. People loosing jobs all over the place, people dying from this virus that is spreading fast,stay at home orders being put into place, shops, malls, business, and theme parks are closing all over the world, it is all so overwhelming. To be honest I don’t know how to deal.😭 My emotions feel all over the place. I have always heard the saying, tomorrow is never promised. This has never been so true today.

While we have been at home, I have been enjoying the time with my family so very much. Yes I miss having some alone time, but we can still manage to take alone time, if even to go outside alone to meditate, take a bath, or close ourselves off in the bedroom, we can make it work. I can’t express enough about how much I appreciate my husband. He helps me out in more ways than I could ask. If I ask, he always helps, for the most part😆. Lol There are plenty of times where he just simply helps and does things without me even asking. From cleaning, to cooking, keeping our daughter occupied so I can get things done, to letting me sleep in or take naps! He has been the greatest support ever.❤️ Especially during these times. I have truly been blessed with such a wonderful man. I am glad to know than I am not alone. 🙏🏽

At night when our daughter is asleep, we either work on our thing, him doing his music, me makeup or just relaxing with a video game or Netflix marathon. Or my favorite, snuggle time doing something together! Holding on to each other more tightly. Enjoy a movie, playing a game, watching a show, having deep conversations and crying with each other, just embracing each other and engraving it into memory. I feel like this time will just make us stronger. I find myself wanting to take in all these moments and simply enjoy the this time.

I‘m not the best at homeschooling. Tbh I hated being homeschooled as a high schooler.😒 Felt like I missed out on a lot. Felt isolated and lonely with little to no social activities with other kids my age. Now to think that during this time, while her school is closed, it is something I will have to do and get adjusted to. It certainly isn’t easy, and Idk if I can keep it up!😅 I will do my best though. 💪 There is no break between mommy and teacher life. Lol This is again where I’m happy to have help from my husband. So I guess maybe I can get a small break!🤪

I have to also admit I have been hugging my daughter a little bit tighter. Enjoying and cherishing our little play times. Giving extra kisses and gazing at my beautiful baby more deeply. Saying “ I love you” even more. Taking extra pictures and video. Watching her learn, grow, dance, sing, play, and just be herself, and seeing her little budding personality is so amazing. Although she see seems to require our attention 24/7, and yes it can get tiring, and even annoying at times, especially when I want to try and get other things done. “ Mommy, daddy, come on let’s play!” We hear it all day! I know she won’t be like this little forever. I don’t want to take any of these moments for granted.

I want to love and cherish my family like there is no tomorrow. Tomorrow really isn’t promised. There is no guarantee you will wake up tomorrow. There is no guarantee you will survive the next day, but we can hold on to faith. To each other, to love, to kindness, to hope. We can live life to the fullest and do the best we can, and just hang on tight. Live the way we see best, and do what makes You truly happy. Keep our family safe and healthy as best as possible. It comes with many ups and downs, but we gotta keep holding on, even if it’s just by the tiniest tread, don’t let go. You got this ❤