Well hello again!

Well, it's been quite some time since I've sat down and taken the time to write on my blog. A whole year and about 5 months to be exact. 😅I have a terrible habit of starting something and then suddenly losing interest and stopping it. Now look at me, interested again in my blog. I would always say things like, "Ugh, I should write on my blog," or "Oh, this would be a good topic to blog about," and "I should really blog about this." Yet, I never did it. I never took the time. Why? I don't know, really. Laziness, perhaps? Or maybe nerves, fear, anxiety. Fear of writing my true thoughts and feelings. Fear of what others may think, or how they would view me after reading. Does anyone even want to read my blog? Does anyone really care? They probably don't. My life isn't so interesting. Those were the things I told myself. That was the story I made up in my head. That's what stopped me from actually doing the work. None of those things were true, and I don't need to worry about how others feel about my truths, feelings, and point of view. It's mine, and I'm not responsible for other people's perception of me. People may not like what I have to say. They may not agree. They may not even understand. And that's okay. I'm not writing this blog for people's approval. I'm writing it for me, to feel a release. I'm writing it because there may be people out there who can relate. I'm writing to help inspire others with my story. I'm writing for me, and I need to remember that. This is my story, not anyone else's. If someone feels some sort of way about it, that's not my problem. It's theirs. Just have to keep reminding myself of this.

I also have to mention that I was kind of inspired by Britney Spears. With her new book "The Woman in Me" coming out, there was some media attention around the book and some things she wrote. Specifically, around her and Justin Timberlake's relationship. Now there seems to be a lot of hate on Justin and support for Britney, which seems unfair to me. This was in thr past! Ugh people can really be so mean.🤦🏽‍♀️ Justin didn't seem to respond to the negative comments and said he wasn't concerned about the book and the "allegations" and was focusing on his own family or something along those lines. I noticed Britney was silent on her IG for a couple of days after the news was out about the details of the book. No fun dancing videos or random, possibly cryptic photos. Then she made a post. She basically said that her book is not meant to hurt or offend anyone. It is just her story of her and her past, her past life. She wasn't happy with the media attention. The book is from her past 20 years of experience, and she said that she has moved on. She understands that it will probably offend some people, but for her, it's closure on all things for a better future. And she hopes to enlighten those who feel alone, hurt, or misunderstood. And with that... I was like, "Yeah, if Britney can do it and get her story out, then why can't I?! Good for her!“ I admire her bravery, especially with all that she's been through. It's Britney, Biiitch, that inspired me to get back into my blogs! Lol I just need to show up!

So this is just the intro; stay tuned as I plan to write about my feelings towards all types of things. I have a feeling there may be long entries, and there may be short entries. Either way, to those who take the time to read and join me on my journey, thank you! I appreciate you, and I'm so glad you're here!